I’ve already gotten two comments on my last post. That is kind of surprising, since I didn’t think that that many people read this blog. There must have been some pent up enthusiasm since I hadn’t posted in a while.

I can’t really right about everything that is going on in my life right now, but might have more info later this week. But here is what I can talk about:

I have made a lot of moves in the last half year about what I where I am going with my life. I have put aside my video work, which took up my last nine years, and am now looking more toward writing and improv acting. I even learned bartending so that I could still bring in money with out taking up all of my time with work. I guess the leap is the time in your life when the choices become real. Until now it has been fun, but I haven’t committed my life to it. This is the scariest time. It is the time when all of my doubts arise. Am I good enough? Will I ever make it? Is this even what I want to do? I am scared more than ever right now because it seems more real than ever. If I pursue this field I might make it or I might fail.

I guess that I know that I must take the leap. My whole life is leading up to this. Deep inside I have always wanted to do this, even when I was going in different directions. I am not really sure then why it is so hard, but it is. It would be so easy to go back into a field where I was doing well, and can make a lot of money. There are lots of outside pressures that would benefit from money. I am thinking that even though few people make it in the entertainment field, that I still have a better shot than winning the lottery. So I know I have to make the sacrifices and “make it work” as Tim Gunn would say.

This is where the dream work comes in. Don’t know if I have told many people about this one, but when I was a kid I used to have the most amazing lucid dreams. I was able to control everything that happened in my own made up world. It was a huge adrenaline rush to have ultimate power, and every time that it happened, I carried that swagger over into real life and was able to accomplish anything. I didn’t really understand what was going on at the time, but I was a little worried afraid of it. I never really explored it to its full extent.

In addition to my career choices, I am also exploring spiritual parts of myself. I think that some dream work may help in both those areas. If I can visualize it and make it happen in my dreams, I may be able to carry it over in the outside world. We shall see.

My friend Meg is doing something similar with intentions. She is writing a plan for her life as though it has already been done. Like she is looking back at all of the steps that got her to the great life that she will be enjoying in the future. If you just let the universe know what you want to happen, sometimes great things will just magically start to fall into place. One of my favorite quotes is “Be Bold, and Mighty Forces will come to your aid.”

That was more than I usually write in my post, but maybe it needed to be said.