Finished up this term of the writing class at Second City. At the end of class Andy gave each of us a little insight into what we are good at and what we need to work on. He talked to me about my focus. After the first class he said that I was doing great and really focused on writing. I had what it takes to make it. This term he said that it feels like I have lost my focus. I was still writing some good stuff, but it wasn’t where I thought it could be. He challenged me to spend more time focusing on each sketch. Pay attention to what I am writing and look for the gifts that present themselves and work to go with those. I feel like I have been going through the motions for some of the assignments, so I will try to use this exercise and hope that I get my focus back.

It seems like I am a little out of focus in other aspects of my life, too. I am faced with a big decision in my life right now. I am thinking about moving back to Champaign to be closer to Virginia and the baby. At the same time I feel like Chicago is the place where I belong. I have never been in a place where I have fit in so well. I love the city. One problem is that I need a more stable job if I am going to stay up here. I need money that I can count on and health insurance would be nice. Andrew mentioned working where he does. It is a sales job, and I am not sure it that is what I want to do. Bar jobs are starting to open up again, and I can still look for video jobs. Everything is confusion right now.